"You can never get a cup of tea large enough or a book long enough to suit me."
-Clive Staples Lewis

Monday, November 28, 2011

Inspired by Christmas music in starbucks...

The Christmas music was still playing over the loud speakers in the coffee shop. It is serenely disturbing as Jingle Bells serenades a man dying as he bleeds out over his latte and bagel with cream cheese. Nobody likes a murder or even death but this one hurt. It is the holiday season and all were enjoying themselves. The couple in the big softies chattering to impress each other on their first date, the two old men playing chess and downing espressos religiously and the barista behind the counter smiling but wanting to be home. The barista is still smiling but the smile is stuck and unconscious when before it was forced and genuinely fake. I have never seen a murder. Now I have. I would like to explain to the police what happened and that would help them catch someone. I would be a hero and even receive a handshake. Alas, all I can tell is that someone walked into the shop as a person on holiday would walk. Strolling with little to no purpose. Meandering would be a good word. I'll use that.
Dashing through the snow..
I want to squelch the notion that murders are loud or dramatic. Well some are I am sure but this one was not. The man on holiday walked up to the man reading the newspaper. A handshake, a smile, a exchange of greetings, pulling him close and then four thrusts of a blade into the newspaper and through the stomach of it's reader. His hands coddle the man's confused face and then he walks towards the door with a small grin on his face. He stops at my table first and presents me with the knife. He tells me I have earned it. I guess so.
..on a one horse open sleigh..
That was it. The holiday skewer did not even run away. He walked. People are not even afraid of spilling the blood of people in coffee shops who read newspapers during the Christmas season. There was Christmas music playing. Has anyone ever died immediately after hearing "Happy Holidays to you."? I watched the man's blood soak his bagel and wondered if that bothered him. I hope it did not, he has enough to worry about at the moment. A new song as come on the speakers.
The weather outside is frightful...
I want to help this man but he is too far gone. I am sorry he is dying. I hope they catch that man on holiday. There is no excuse to interrupt the yule tide season. People have presents to buy and trees to decorate. Uncalled for really.
...but the fire is so delightful...
Turn off the incessant music. I cannot seem to get a grasp on what has happened with those tunes blocking out all ranges of emotions. Police officers are inside now with guns pulled and some paramedics are fussing over the newspaper and it's reader. They should stop. He is dead. I wish I did not have such sticky hands. The coppers are looking at me with odd looks on their face. The guns are pointed towards me. This is un safe I say. Doesn't a man have rights in this holiday season? I would like to finish my coffee please. I tell them this and they do not listen. Hands behind the back is uncomfortable. I am worried that the police officers have made a mistake as the knife is on my table.
They are not convinced by my oaths of innocence. The other customers have turned on me. They want justice.
...as long as you love me so, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...
Looking back I should have taken my pills but it was the holiday season I say. I will not subject myself to that any longer. I was a man on holiday, I did not need any pills telling me what to do. Merry Christmas I guess. I tell this to the police officer who handcuffs me. No response. I am not sure holidays mean the same to everyone.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Where does it stop and start?

Let us define phrases. Living for today. So ignored and so misused. I think.  How do we live day by day (by day, by day, by day oh lord) and not be terrible stewards of our lives? What does that mean? Is it sensible to do this at all? What happens when we plan for tomorrow and then forget about where you are walking?
I have lots of daily questions.
I have few daily answers.
I think that is okay...
Living for today. Do not say tomorrow I will go here or there and do this or that.
Constant worry/planning/hoarding about the future blinds us to world around us. People are stuck in time and space and out bodies are still not fully severed from out Adamistic Doom. Meaning we are going to die sometime. I have heard so many people talk about regrets they have about their loved ones death, wishing they had spent more time with them or told them they loved them the last time the talked. (authors note: look how many words start with L or T in that last sentence.) As I have become older I have finally started to realize the importance of saying "I love you" to friends and family members when I hang up the phone. Suck the marrow from the time you spend with people. We do not know when our string is cut.
I do not want to live just today and go bankrupt tomorrow.
How do we balance living today and being stewards?
I think the door swings on obsession.
Do not be obsessed with anything. Today is happening. You are alive today and maybe tomorrow. Which should you pick to focus on? You can live today and set up things for tomorrow without losing sight of the person in front of you. Do what you can but don't throw all your chips in for anything but Christ.
To hedge one's bets is a sin.
I am living today, so I will drink and enjoy this cup of coffee. I will cook dinner, enjoy it and give thanks for the provision. I will not max out 3 credit cards or take a loan that I never plan to pay off because I think I shouldn't plan for tomorrow. That is what a fool would do. The world could end tomorrow but it also could go on for 10,000 more years. How do you want to look or what do you want to be doing with the trumpet sounds? I want to be sitting with friends or family, enjoying a meal or reading a book. Live this life for Him and I promise you will have time to go see some wonders of The World later.
I do not know if I have made any sense yet so I shall stop.